Hey,

It’s been tough lately. I have my good days and my bad days - you know same old. How are you?

I want to know how you are doing, seriously. It helps distract me from analyzing myself. I don’t think I am okay, but the people around me, they seem to think I am. I wish I could say that I am, but I would be lying. I know it’s a problem, but I am working on it. I’m taking the bullet and asking everyone, including myself, what they think about me as person and if I really am going anywhere in life. I’m asking the hard questions like if I really have talent or if I am even able to make it past college. These are hard for me, anyway.

No worries though, I will be just fine. Don’t worry, I’ve got goals, you see. These things that sometimes drive me, I am so grateful for them. I won’t be down for long. I know it. I just have to do what Pat always says, focus on my breathing. Your breathing will always be with you, if it’s not that mean you’re dead, Duh.

Anyhow, I’ll see you soon. I love you so much. Remember to let me know how you are doing once you get this.

Love,

Mariah