I Fell Back in Love with My Image

I edited an image this week of my friend Lima. The image was captivating: Stunning, bright shining window light fell onto one side of her body and gradually spread across her body as it plunged into deep shadows on the opposite side. There was huge contrast from the drastic light difference on either side of her. Her gaze was right into my camera with shoulders back and hands unseen but crossed in front of her. 

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I took that photo over the past summer and I had used Lightroom to convert it into black and white. However, up to the present I brought it back into color and challenged myself to use the techniques I am learning in my Fine Print Workflow course to make this image look well. 

While the lighting in the image I described was amazing, the colors were looking awful. The room is painted a shade of blue, the bright daylight, which is naturally a blue color temperature, was washing out the tanned color of her skin, but the shadows were so deep it was rendering her skin color a super saturated orange-yellow. Most of all the points on her body which the shadow and highlight met were so bad and looked as if I did an awful Photoshop affect.

After spending over an hour on the image, I began to get frustrated and dislike the image. I stepped away for a bit and felt something inside me tell me that this image is most powerful in black and white. I can’t really explain it, but as soon as I sat back down and started to use a Black and White adjustment layer in Photoshop, my heart jumped in happiness. After tonal adjustments to my aesthetic choice, I was so excited to print my image for critique. 

Lesson of the day: follow your gut. Give other options a try, but if it ain’t resonating with you, then let it go and follow your gut. I tried to work on the image in color, but deep down I knew it was most impactful in black and white. 

So, for educational purposes, while it feels vulnerable and wrong, I am placing both my mistake and my success of my photograph of Lima. 

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© Mariah Texidor

Don’t give up! 

xx,

Mariah

What are 10 things most people don't know about you?

This is such a tough question for me because I am such an open book! So, I asked for some help and here’s my attempt:

  1. From the boyfriend: Why are you an open book? 
    I am an open book because I feel while trust is definitely earned, I feel like you have to give it to get it. You never know what sharing your story with someone can do for them, maybe open their eyes, or make them think. 
  2. I think I have a high possibility of dying of laughter. I’m not kidding. I laugh hard and often that I think there is a high chance of that happening to me. 
  3. I love ASL Poetry and those who create/do it! I have picked up American Sign Language during my time at RIT and I have fallen in love with it. It has given me another opportunity to connect and communicate with others as well as express some great ideas.
    (Thank you Luane and Dangerous Signs!) 
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  4. I am a huge book worm. I love love love reading. I really miss reading children’s books though! 
  5. have to be organized! I can’t have a crazy messy desk, e-mail un-filed, or my tasks unwritten. I feel quite crazy on the weeks I forget to use my planner.
  6. On the contrary to number 6, I use a handful of tools to gather my online inspiration and it kinda drives me nuts. I use pInterest for motivating quotes, or inspiring images, and Evernote for compiling my favorite quotes. I sometimes have downloaded images that I love and want to make a desktop slideshow of, but it feels all over the place… I’m working on it, haha.
  7. I am a good-listener and really enjoy helping someone see the brighter side to their day. 
  8. I go through some hard times of self-doubt and disbelief in my work and sometimes it gets the best of me.
  9. From a friend: What inspires me most in the world?
    That’s a tough question. I would have to say seeing people do well for themselves, positivity, love, and resilience. All of that combined makes me feel so inspired!
  10. I shaved my hair in January of 2014 to donated it all in effort to bring awareness of cancer and cancer research, as well as contribute to the production of wigs for cancer patients. 

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I hope this was interesting! I love learning about people, so feel free to share an interesting fact about yourself too!

xx,

Mariah

I think I know what direction I want to go in and it may not include what I spend $40,000+/year on

While I am well skilled in math and science and have the potential to be a STEM individual, I decided to go to college to study photography, to be a creative. I decided to attend a university that costs approximately $47,000 a year to attend to study a subject I could have taught myself. However, coming to RIT has been one of the best things in my life, even if I am not sure what life has in store for me come May 2015. 

I had heard many stories about people who went to college for many years to end up not being in love with what they studied, doing it just for a secure job after graduation, or it took them a long time to figure out they weren’t doing what they love. I didn’t want that, as soon as I knew I loved photography, I knew I was going to chase my dreams and go to my dream school and study what I want from the get-go. I don’t have well-off family who pay for my school, but instead I have my determination to work 3-4 jobs, obtain scholarship, and some family who helped me out in the beginning (whom I am so, so grateful for and love, they know who they are!). 

Now, I sit and think with my desk in an array of books, papers, and flyers wondering if photo is the right thing for me. I didn’t choose this major for the money, but I did choose it for the love and challenge it gives me. 

Each week in my Fine Art Portfolio class, I leave inspired by my professor that I am doing something right. I am on a right path, even if I may not feel 100% confident in it.

My current project is about how people see themselves on the inside versus what they portray themselves as on the outside. What they show and what they keep in the shadows. This project has been harder than I anticipated, but along the way I am struck by the confidence and awe in my professors voice each critique we have: I care. I care enough to want to help people discover themselves on a journey that is their own, because I feel it is so important. That is the passion in this project. That is the passion that has been shown during my past four years at RIT.

While it seems my passion is freakin’ expensive, I am glad I came here to figure it out. I see it in my every day life: I am a resident advisor and work with freshmen enriching their college experience, I am a peer among many students in an organization called Photo House, I am an active loving member of an ASL poetry group called Dangerous Signs, I am involved in a certificate program about Social Change. I am passionate about people, inspiring others, motivating others, and helping others express themselves. That is what my work is constantly about, whether I am the main subject or other people. 

I needed college to help me figure this out. So, while I may not know if I am going to be making money off my photography after graduation, what I do know is this: I will continue to do what I love; I will inspire, motivate, and create in one outlet or another. My loans and debt will be worth it in the end, because I know I have profitable technical skills (retouching, color management, digital asset management, etc.), as well as a passion that has only grown during my time in school. 

Tell me what you are passionate about and maybe we can make something together :)

xx,

Mariah

Hello, I am back!

For my followers who have jumped on this page here’s a little about me:

I’m Mariah Texidor, some call me Mo’. I am determined to live each day seeing the bright side! I am from the boogie-down, Bronx in NYC, but currently reside in Rochester, NY for college. I attend RIT studying the thing I am continuously being inspired by, photography. I am super passionate and love inspiring people to live their lives! I do that by talking and being open with others, as well as talking about my process in my photography, which is often a self-involved journey.

I started blogging this summer in hopes to track my first summer entering the world of adulthood and in my profession of photography. I had a lot of goals, and while not all of them got accomplished, it was a hell of an inspiring summer! So NOW, I want to share with the world my life through senior year in college. Basically, I want to share and show that I am another person trying to live life, and I will be as honest as possible in the struggles and accomplishments that occur from here on out. 

So, if you’re wondering what is the point of me taking this space online to go on about my life, I’ll tell you. My blog is for me to look back on and remember the good, the bad, the ugly- in a positive and honest light in the end. It is for other people who may feel they are the only ones who live joyously, but feel bad when they are not ok or having bad days. For those who make art about another dimension of themselves, express themselves in more than one way.

With all that being said, something I am very proud of is my recent project I am working on. It is in progress, but it has been pushing me in new ways both in terms of making my work, thinking about it, and looking at other work for inspiration. I am excited about all the things I am learning and proud to be piecing it all together in different forms: making a book and workflow for a gallery, developing my fine printing workflow, creating books/learning new binding techniques, and making images that utilize my favorite thing: light. 

©Mariah Texidor

So, if there is one message I want people to get out of my blog is that everything happens for a reason. The things you learn, the people you meet, the way you feel, it all happens for a reason. It isn’t always important or necessary to know what the reason is, so I encourage everyone to make your decisions worth while! Create a life that makes you feel proud of yourself and love who you are each day.

I will be posting for a week straight which will be tough with my schedule, but I will in part of a challenge. 

How will YOU enjoy today? :)

xx,
Mariah

©Mariah Texidor