Oh Sh*t, I Did A Video

I have no idea why I put an asterisk in the title, you all know what I meant!

Last week I premiered my first video for you guys on my newsletter, then on my Facebook Page, so if you didn't know, now you do!

The feedback and enthusiasm from everyone has been INCREDIBLE. I couldn't believe it. I still can't, but I am so happy it has been that way. This has been so encouraging and motivating for me to continue creating content. 

Alright, Mariah, what the hell is this video about?

About me!! It's about me, how photography came into my life, what I aim to do with my photography, and how YOU are a part of my journey. So without further ado, enjoy my "Hello & Welcome" video!

I truly hope you learned something new or got to know me a little better with this video. I want to learn about YOU! 

So, take it to the comments and answer one of these questions: 

  1. Tell me something about yourself

  2. What is a really good book you just read?

  3. What did you think about this video?

Thank you sooo much for taking the time out to watch my video! Be on the lookout for more-- the best way to be in the loop is to sign up for my newsletter because my subscribers get first word on err-thanggg!

Love love love you all, have a kickass week!

XO,

Mariah

Let's Talk About the Struggle

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© Mariah Texidor

I am halfway through watching this interview with Marie Folio and Todd Henry about finding your voice, and I became inspired to write about one of the topics they discuss.


Something the author said struck me so hard, it was as if I walked into a glass door. You know its there, but it’s so clear you walk right into it? Yeah, that way. Like those crows in the Windex commercials.


There is so much content on the Internet, it is so incredibly easy to get overwhelmed by all the things we should be reading or listening to. I am totally guilty of feeling this unnecessary pressure to get through my ever growing list of “Things to Read”.


Something I am finding that all of this content has in common, which is touched upon in that video, is that everyone wants a shortcut or a hack to do a million different things. This really isn’t new, there has always been content about “getting rich quick” or trying to gain skills quickly, perhaps without doing the work. However, I feel it is more present than ever as I am in this fluid and ever-changing stage in adulthood.


I won’t say no one (because I am one), but not many people are talking about the struggle. Not many are talking about the fact that while you made something or accomplished something, it was actually really fucking hard. This is a bit of a problem to me. For one, individuals posting their end result without any mention or acknowledgment of the process, possibly creates this idealistic visionary of sorts to their viewers. This is not to say everything has to be a struggle, because there very well may be things that do come easily to some. Second, this lack of acknowledgment kind of fuels this realization that many of us come across: we can do those things (insert person you admire/say you want to be like) does, but when we try to do it quick and dirty and are unsuccessful, we become disappointed and give up. I remind you, so-and-so person you admire most likely worked really hard to get the attention they are getting now. It probably took a lot of time, trial and error to get where they are.


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© Mariah Texidor

Participating in things like #The100DayProject (my project was #100DaysofFeelingbyMariah) and completing four years of college culminating in my exhibited work,You & I and the Shadow Shelfshowed me the importance of the process as well as the struggle in order to create a body of work I am truly proud of.


Here are somethings I learned and will share with you:

  • Envision how you want the end product to look like. Now accept that it will not look exactly like that. I don’t say it in a negative manner, but things manifest over the creation period. Which leads to my next point…
  • Embrace change. Be malleable, pliable, open, etc. With any content you are creating, listen to it and let it flow.
  • Lastly, share your process. Get feedback, open your mind and hear other people’s opinions. Find groups of people you trust to share your work with. Share your in-progress work to the public, to strangers. It’s okay. Remember to take feedback, suggestions, criticism, and praise all with a grain of salt.
  • I lied, the last thing is to be proud of yourself for doing all of the above :-).


It’s hard to be an open book and let people in on projects when they are not “perfect”, definitely not saying it’s easy. However, it will help you grow. It will attract people who appreciate honesty and vulnerability in potential products/work/pieces they many want to buy or share with their network of friends and family. It will bring to attention that you are human, as most of us are, and it takes many steps along the road to get a final product we are proud of.


I am proud to say that I work each day to show that to get to where I want is no easy stroll in the park, and is indeed a struggle. Some days are better than others, some days worse. That’s my whole shtick, ya know? It’s okay to not be okay. You know that quote, it’s about the journey not the destination? Yeah, that’s basically what I am harping on.


Keep pushing and go on, share your struggle. Tell us your story.


With love and encouragement, 

Mariah


P.S. I finished the interview and it has so much more inspiring content worth writing and thinking about as well. I encourage you to watch it yourself!

Hello, I am back!

For my followers who have jumped on this page here’s a little about me:

I’m Mariah Texidor, some call me Mo’. I am determined to live each day seeing the bright side! I am from the boogie-down, Bronx in NYC, but currently reside in Rochester, NY for college. I attend RIT studying the thing I am continuously being inspired by, photography. I am super passionate and love inspiring people to live their lives! I do that by talking and being open with others, as well as talking about my process in my photography, which is often a self-involved journey.

I started blogging this summer in hopes to track my first summer entering the world of adulthood and in my profession of photography. I had a lot of goals, and while not all of them got accomplished, it was a hell of an inspiring summer! So NOW, I want to share with the world my life through senior year in college. Basically, I want to share and show that I am another person trying to live life, and I will be as honest as possible in the struggles and accomplishments that occur from here on out. 

So, if you’re wondering what is the point of me taking this space online to go on about my life, I’ll tell you. My blog is for me to look back on and remember the good, the bad, the ugly- in a positive and honest light in the end. It is for other people who may feel they are the only ones who live joyously, but feel bad when they are not ok or having bad days. For those who make art about another dimension of themselves, express themselves in more than one way.

With all that being said, something I am very proud of is my recent project I am working on. It is in progress, but it has been pushing me in new ways both in terms of making my work, thinking about it, and looking at other work for inspiration. I am excited about all the things I am learning and proud to be piecing it all together in different forms: making a book and workflow for a gallery, developing my fine printing workflow, creating books/learning new binding techniques, and making images that utilize my favorite thing: light. 

©Mariah Texidor

So, if there is one message I want people to get out of my blog is that everything happens for a reason. The things you learn, the people you meet, the way you feel, it all happens for a reason. It isn’t always important or necessary to know what the reason is, so I encourage everyone to make your decisions worth while! Create a life that makes you feel proud of yourself and love who you are each day.

I will be posting for a week straight which will be tough with my schedule, but I will in part of a challenge. 

How will YOU enjoy today? :)

xx,
Mariah

©Mariah Texidor

Type Directors Club 60th Annual

A few nights ago Sarah and I helped Catalina while she photographed the TDCs 60th Annual. To say that it was amazing is an understatement.

There was so much talented artwork all dealing with typography, I couldn’t believe some of the stuff I was seeing. 

Instead of posting my crappy iPhone pics, check out the amazing photos Catalina took via the articled I’ve linked. Within the article they share their link with even more photos posted onto their Facebook. 

Oh, Sarah and I totally fan-girled AFTER we got a picture with Matthew Carter, the creator of the typefaces Verdana and Georgia. AHH! 

© Catalina Kulczar

Sometimes, it's okay to dig up the past

This thought came up to me as I was going through my 6,000+ emails in my college email. I am trying to clean up all my inboxes and while in my school email I found old evaluations and grades from photo assignments. I’m talkin’ freshmen year, filled with fear and mistakes photo kid assignments. 

Reading them made me nostalgic and reminded me of how much I have changed in perspective and state of mind. When I return in the fall, it will be to complete my last year at RIT. Freshman year I was so hellbent on grades- what a harsh reality it is to see how subjective grades are in any kind of art related major. So naturally, my mind flickered back to how crushed I felt when I received a D on a photo assignment, and how elated I was when I received my first A on a photo assignment. However, seeing those grades now? They don’t mean much. What really means something 2-3 years later was the feedback (some of) my professors wrote. The praise and congratulations when I improved, the images I made successfully, as well as the suggestions and comments when I clearly didn’t cut it or execute a technique properly. 

Anyway, all of this to say it is a good thing to be able to look back and reflect. Look back and recognize any growth you have gone through. Look back and be inspiredI know I am. Am I going to do anything with this inspiration? Maybe. I don’t know. But that feeling of lightness inside, a glint of hope, that good things do happen– that feeling is what I got from looking back at those emails. So yeah, sometimes it’s okay to dig up the past. It might just give you that little bit of confirmation that you will get where you want to be. 

I won't be my own obstacle anymore

I am always getting in the way of myself, my talent, my work, my art, everything in general. The past year I have been improving slowly, but surely. Really owning my photography and talent, building my confidence in my work, is what I am determined to do every day. 

So, if you haven’t noticed already, I am giving myself a challenge to take a portrait every day for the next 15 days, no matter what. Why is this a big deal for me? Many reasons. 

  1. I don’t do so well with challenges. 30 Day photo challenges are instagram are even a struggle. I cannot do that #100HappyDays challenge… not yet anyway. 
  2. I don’t do so well with those because instead of allowing them to push my creativity, they begin to feel like an obligation and a chore. 
  3. They’re too long, and while I have good time management skills, I put my sleep as a priority so after a long day I will sleep instead of hopping on my computer blogging, getting distracted with articles, facebook, etc. 
  4. Lastly, I put so many obstacles in the way with strict parameters. I see them as parameters when they should just be guidelines, you get me? It’s about perspective. *oh, I missed a day… ah! I didn’t photograph with my camera… crap, no one is going to like this or care.*

So… what makes this one any different?

  1. I made it for myself.
  2. I am telling my self the next 15 days are free of parameters.
  3. While I want to strictly use my DSLR, I will not beat myself up if I shoot with my iPhone.
  4. I am taking portraits, which I am growing to love and have received a lot of feedback on.
  5. Lastly, these images will matter to me, and that’s what is important. They will matter to me whether its because of who it is I am photographing, the experience to get the shot, or just those moments you cannot explain, but are utterly grateful for.

With allllll that said. I hope you guys enjoy the images I will post throughout my blog. I love feedback, its given me a thick skin, so please feel free to send me a message. Look at my past two days! I’ll be posting more soon, so look out :)

xo,

Mariah